Monday, December 29, 2008

And just like that...it's over.

Well turns out that the first test might have been wrong. Or I may have just had a chemical pregnancy. Basically that just means that I momentarily (like for a day) was pregnant, and the egg didnt quite implant in my uterus, yet it was producing the hormone that pregnancy produces and I tested just in that brief moment. So my body was carrying the hormone even though I wasn't really pregnant. Apparently it happens in about 50% of pregnancies, so it's normal. I just tested too early.

Oh well! Back to the drawing board I guess. It will happen...we just have to be patient. I won't lie and say that I wasn't heart broken. Paul and I were so excited...we even toasted with Martinelli's. Even though I'm well aware of the fact that a lot of things can happen in the early stages, and that it's such a delicate process, I still was hopeful that this was it.

Anyway...we're still going to keep trying and hopefully I'll have a more upbeat post to write in the near future!

Saturday, December 27, 2008

It's a sign!

Two days after Christmas and the gifts keep coming. Our Christmas vacation started this past Wednesday on Christmas Eve. Paul and I made our way up to Paul's parents house in the mountains for what would turn out to be 3 days of relaxation and snow! Paul's parents recently put their house up on the market for sale because they are looking to move closer to everyone. While they love the mountain living, they are a bit tired of the hard work during the snowy winter. Everything went very well during those days up there. And every little cooincidence that came about, made Paul's dad say "This must be a sign of good things!" And we all agreed.

We spent Christmas Eve, Christmas Day and the 26th stuffing our faces with all the delicious food we could fit into our stomachs. But soon we had to make our way home. We said our tearful goodbyes and headed down the icy roads. Half way into our hour long drive, Paul's balls decided to break. His ball bearings that is, on his truck. =) So, in the frigid winter air, on the side of what seemed like the indy 500 track, we waited for our tow truck to arrive. It must be a sign right? That we need a better and newer car? His F-150 was trying to tell us something. So in we jumped into the tow truck and we finally made it home.

After spending some time with my super cute godson that night, we headed home. For some reason I was pretty tired, even though we had had a pretty relaxing last few days. I tossed and turned half the night because my stomach was a bit upset. But at about 2 in the morning I was finally able to fall asleep. And! I was finally able to sleep in this morning! I woke up, still not feeling 100% but rested. Paul and I decide to figure out how to get his truck into a mechanic's shop to get fixed. Once we dealt with that, we decided to head out to the mall to finish some Christmas shopping (apparently we're SUPER procrastinators seeing as today is the 27th! but shhhhh! Don't tell anyone!) After our quick trip to the mall we decided that we should use some of our Christmas money to finally buy the really cool SLR camera that we had wanted for quite some time. Paul wanted to make sure he knew exactly how to use this type of camera so that if we ever got pregnant, he'd be ready to go! So we headed off to Best Buy and chose the perfect camera....Canon Rebel XSi...it was love at first sight! Maybe it was a sign?

By this point, we realized that it was almost 3:00 and we hadn't even eaten yet. So we thought it would be a good idea to have a late lunch at Cheesecake Factory seeing as LAST Christmas we got a gift card for there and we had never used it....see...procrastinators! As we were driving over to the restaurant I contemplated telling Paul that I really wasn't feeling all that hungry. In fact I was feeling slightly nauseous, but I figured it might be because I hadn't eaten anything. I'll just get some bread and a coke (regular not diet!) in me and I'll feel better. Sure enough with a little food in me, I felt a lot better.

We had a great lunch and headed home. I still wasn't feeling 100% right, but I just figured it was all the food we had been eating over the last 3 days. I figured I had just over indulged. We relaxed a bit at home, had a nice visit from my aunt Olga, and then I told Paul I was gonna run up and take a shower and get into some cozy lounging clothes so we could hang out and watch some movies. As I was in our closet looking for my clothes I came across a pregnancy test. And I thought to myself, "hmmm. What if the reason I'm not feeling well is because I'm finally pregnant?

Nooooo, that can't be it. It's too early to tell anyway, even if I were.

Can it be possible? No way. Stop it Sandra. You're nuts. And Paul is gonna think you're nuts too.

No he won't!

Ok, I'll just take the test, and if I'm not pregnant, I just won't tell him I took it.

Ha! Yes you will! He'll know you took it!

OK FINE! Just take it and see it say "NOT PREGNANT" and move on with your life knowing you just ate way to much these last few days.

FINE!"

So I took the test to the bathroom, locked the door and...well...peed on the stick. It was a digital test, so I watched it as the little hourglass blinked repeatedly. For some reason it was taking forever to give a result. But I just sat there and stared. And stared. And stared. And stared. Stupid hourglass. And then there it was....clear as day: PREGNANT. What?? It can't be! Nooooo! So I ran to the stairs and called up to Paul. "Babe! Come up here...you have to see this!" So Paul ran up to the bathroom thinking that either the toilet was overflowing or that Daisy had yet again done something hilarious. I took a shaky hand and pointed to the pregnancy test and said LOOK! He looked in the direction of the test and totally didn't even see it. He said "what am I looking for?" I said look at the test! And at that moment we realized that we had finally done it! WE ARE KNOCKED UP! We are no longer just going to be Paul & Sandy...sooner than we know it we'll be Paul & Sandy Plus One!

So, the moral of the story is this kids: Yes it IS that easy to get pregnant; yes, even just sitting in a car together will get you pregnant; and yes "it was a sign!"